Well, it has been awhile and there isn't much to tell. I am still a smoker, and no lighter and losing all hope and faith in anything. Was very gun ho in the begining, now the luster is gone.
Was doing very well before the weekend. I was down to 10 cigarettes for Thurs and Friday then Saturday hit. Just didn't feel like watching or anything like that, so 16 smokes were consumed. Then Sunday was a bust with the idea that if I can slide once I can twice. 12 smokes had that day. So, got back on the wagon on Monday...well kinda, just cut down from saturday. 11 smokes yesterday were consumed.
Today is a better day. Am at 8.5 smokes so far. Will be at 9 before the end of the night. Had made a goal of 10 smokes today. So, I guess I can do it. Now to keep it going. Today wasn't too hard to make it through. Sure there were moments that all I wanted to do was smoke, but those moments passed and I kept going!! Tomorrow the goal is 9 (I think). Am going to make it 9, but will push to see if 8 can be achieved. The more I can cut down this week the better things may be for me.
If all goes right I am going to become smoke free early next week. This is if the wagon doesn't push me off first. The plan is : next week the house will be free of smokers, so if I can be without the extra influence for the first couple of days that may give me a good start. I haven't told anyone over the age of 3 in the house that I intend to quit at all. From what I see they have noticed something, but haven't put 2 and 2 together yet. I wanted to do this totally on my own and for me. Don't need the quirky comments or silent pauses or anything else they wanna or could give me. I want surprise and quiet wait for me to either succeed or fail!!! This may just give me the added push to prove them wrong. As stated earlier a big plus will be there will be no other smokers in the house. The cons of doing this is that it is just me and my daughter in the house. No real means of escape if needed for the cravings. Another con is due to the family not knowing, they are going to make sure that I am fully prepared for the week away. This includes making sure I have enough smokes to cover the week. So, although no one will be smoking, there will still be the allure of cigarettes within the house! Will have to plan to make sure that they are not TOO accessible to me. Guess I have to have the temptation around. Won't be long before it will be here on a daily and hourly basis. Better get used to it early!
With this week of family being gone, I am also attempting one other thing. My daughter is going to be sleeping in her own room and on her own during this week. This means that she is moving into a new room upstairs and is not going to have the security of a mom really close by when awoken! Will be a very interesting week. Sure it will be difficult at times, but worth the end result. Will make bed time a whole lot easier and easier for babysitters to put her to sleep when the time comes! Have got to keep reminding myself of the freedom that the both of us will have in the end!!
As for health and weight loss. Have a dentist appointment tomorrow, and have to make appointments for my physical and skin tag removal on Thursday. Also have an ultrasound booked for early October to make sure all is well in my stomach and abdomin. That is where the health sits. At the moment I am not making weight loss a huge issue. Am trying to make sure I do active things when the craving hit, but am not making a bid deal of not loosing any weight. Am watching to make sure the weight does not go up much further than where I sit at the moment. Did take measurements though...... weight 224........ bust 45 inches.... waist 52 inches and hips 48 inches. No gain since I started to write here, so I guess that is a good thing! will see what next couple weeks bring with that as well!
Think that is all for now! am getting tired!
Do not be discouraged by the lack of change in the weight, etc numbers. It takes a while to get things going in your body ... getting your metabolism up and running and stay up and running is not easy. Also remember that muscle weighs more than fat. Try not to sit completely still, even if watching TV. Keep your hands busy with a craft, or something. Or just keep turning an object around in your hands. Fidgeting works.
ReplyDeleteAs for the taking time, well, when I thumbed a ride to work, I could walk from 15 min to 40 before catching a ride, and I did that for about 4 days a week, for several months. My weight hasn't really changed ... it bounces depending on the time of month and how I've been eating. Walking the dog and staying on the move at work keeps me active, but I don't know that I'm losing weight. I have a firmer bum and legs, and a co-worker assures me that I look like I'm losing, but the scale is my enemy at times.
Here is the advice that was given to me about weight loss measurement.
1. DO NOT rely on the scale.
2. When weighing or measuring, try to do it before you do anything that can raise your heart rate. Increased blood flow can increase your numbers and give you a false impression of gain.
3. Try to measure at the same time each day. (I like to do it first thing in the morning.)
I'm still cheering for you. Keep at it!
For the smoking - I'm glad that you haven't quit quitting. Giving up is the only true failure, and improving your health for yourself and your daughter is a worthy cause! HOWEVER, do not make the mistake of thinking that falling off the wagon and jumping off the wagon are the same thing. However, Sunday was not a complete bust. Yes, you missed your goal of 10, but you were significantly lower than Saturday. Don't rush, but don't quit either.
I hope to be home soon. Trying to figure out how to work it ... I hope to see you well on your way to being smoke free if you aren't already there.
Hugs to you both ...