I can't help but laugh at some people. I keep reading this is the year to. . . from so many people. It just seems so odd and funny to hear how people wanna change this or that and, like me, have little or nothing to show for it! I know I rarely have anything big to show for the false determination that I have at the begining of the year. Tis a great thing when people can put their minds to it and do it and I stand up and cheer very loudly when people have that kind of strenght. I think I laugh cuz I know I just like most that will likely lose the motivation to get anywhere really. I too comfortable in the past and right now to move foreward and actually change.
I know it not the best way to start an entry, but it brings a little more focus into what may come next. It also may just keep me into a mello bring the house down bantering. Either way, it just feels right tonight!
So, as for the bucket list, I have already started something. I have purchased a mattress for Carrie. I have the frame here already and we get the mattress on Thursday. So, next weekend she will be trying out her new big girl bed. Should be an interesting time. I think it will go with a couple really good nights then a portion of time to test the waters. This will be when she realizes that she can get out of bed any time that she wants to! This should be interesting. And we going to the mountains the last week of June. We are going to Radium and I have already put my holidays in to work. I know a little premature, but I just can't wait for it!
On the work front. I thought I was just casual over the christmas rush, but I was wrong. The let all of the seasonal workers go this week and I am still there. Which means they not letting me go!!! YAY, I get to stay. That is really cool. I am however still looking through news papers and stuff just in case something is to pop up. It is not a really big deal, just in case. You never know what pops up if you don't look.
I had a specialist call me yesterday. I am going to find out what is going on with me (maybe). I have not been regular in a long time and wonder what is wrong. It is not anything obvious so to a specialist I go. The doctor thinks that is has to be an imbalance in my hormones. Either that or stress. Either way this specialist can tell better than he can. Not that I complaining, but I have not been a real lady since March last year. Not a spec of anything ladylike. Has been nice not to have that worry, but I wonder what is happening.
Tomorrow I am going to start looking into smoking and my eating habits again. I am going to start a journal of what, how much, why and whatnot for both. Have been totally slacking off with everything within the holiday season and need to reboot it all up again. It should prove interesting. Although with how much my little girl keeps me going it could prove difficult. Will have to find a way to include her in all of it. Maybe get her to remind me of what we ate or draw some pictures or something. We will see how it goes.
Anyways, I think I am done for tonight. Will discuss how things go in a little while.
It is not false determination!! The determination is REAL! It's the will to act on it that falters. Find something that inspires you or encourages you! (And your weight loss is not "nothing"! You have something to show!) I believe in you! But that doesn't mean beans if YOU don't believe in yourself!
ReplyDeleteIF you lack motivation on your list, maybe you need to re-vamp it about matter that are most important? Just an idea.
Good luck with the specialist. I vote stress. Almost stressed myself into menopause ... but that's a different story ... maybe.
Glad you are coming back to your diet and smoking. Don't worry about how often you fall off the wagon ... consider the fact that you keep getting back on!! THAT is worth cheering about!
Hope to see you soon!