ok..... back to it!!

Yup, it is time to get back to it!   It is almost half way through the year and I have moved very little through the things I wanted to do. Granted, I do have plans for some of my bucket list for the year. Guess that is a start. It is funny that all the things that have been already done all have to do with Carrie directly. Her, big girl bed and being dry and plans for trips are all to do with Carrie. It is great that she is the first priority in my head.

It is easy to make her the priority and push my stuff til the end. Now it is time to side saddle Carrie and put some of me first. The weight (that I am starting to gain again) and this smoking is getting way too out of hand. Need to just nip them in the butt and start being better about it. I have all the information needed to stop and reduce. Just need to add it up and put it in place.  I am pondering ways to quit smoking again. After 2 attempts with the cutting down to quitting being unsuccessful, am wondering if other ways and options could work better for me!  I wanna be smoke free for Carries birthday.... what could be a better gift than a mom on her way to healthier and making her healthier along the way! That would be a great gift..... even if there is no real significance to her! It would mean the world to me! OK.... there is a goal.... June 11th it is... gives me 17 days. WOW..... that is so definate, I kinda like it!

On good but sad news, the other parent got himself a job this week. He is now an employee of Home Depot. This means more stretching for care for carrie. Right now I have my neice staying with us until we can get something more set in stone, but I fear she won't last here long!!!! she doesn't stay anywhere long! Then we need to re evaluate who is dong what.  Have a feeling that it will be me to cut hours first. That really sucks because I was just starting to save up some money again. That puts the idea of a vehicle or a new place to live for this year..... maybe another year here may set things in better motion for proper amounts of savings!  Although it would be kinda great to have Carrie be here and go to school here. Couldn't think of a better place to continue to raise Carrie and have her grow and thrive. Maybe my heart is here and so should she. That just means the push to get the drivers license should be on. So, I can at least get out of the house when I would like to.   Thanks to all those that didn't help!!! lol.... had offers for people to let me drive, but when it came to it no one showed up!  Maybe I will hire the neighbor to let me practise driving. I have the basics, just haven't been behind the wheel in awhile. So, I need the practise desperatly!  Watch out roads.... I will soon be on them!

Well, that is all I can think of for the moment.... so I will leave it for awhile!!!!

will, write soon