DAY 5

Well, it has been a week. All I can say is wow I made it!  There were some rough moments where I was wondering if I was going to be able to make it to the next meal, but I always did. And funny enough, most times I made it without hunger. I guess I was really aver eating and not realizing it. We figured out the kinks throughout the week for things that we could cut or do differently. We even tested things and had my favorite breakfast this morning. I LOVE my dad's pancakes and can usually eat 4 or so. They tasted so good that is was hard to so just 2, but I did it!  Carrie wonders whey we eating less than usual and she is starting to follow it too. She tells me, not so much mommy. To this I say ok, but if you still hungry after you can have more.  The hard part is when she gets to have a candy or something and wants to share with mommy and mommy says no thank you. She has gotten mad at me saying no. Guess it is just as big of a change for her as it is for me.

Big surprise. I was going to get on the scale on Monday, make it a weekly thing. I couldn't stay away this morning. I know the chances of seeing a difference was not too likely, but I had to check! And SURPRISE!!! I was down 5 pounds.  YAY ME!!!  I was ssoo excited. I was at 220 on Monday and 215 on Friday. To those that say ah its just fluctuating weight lose and not really a loss..... suck it up. I am down 5 pounds and nothing is going to bring that down!!! That is what I needed to see. I know it will be slow, but the idea that it was down over being the same was a wonderful feeling. Enough to renew my drive and keep going with a vengance!

On the front of smoking, it is up again. With the focus on watching when and what I am eating there are times that I needed something to take the mind off of when the next meal was I smoked. It is after a glass or two of water and trying to find something else to do. Just haven't found the thing to do instead of it yet. Am going to keep trying different things to revanmp what I am doing. I know, one crutch for another. It will all work out though. Get the kinks out of one before the other. Slow and steady!!! 

Think this weekend is going to be quite the challenge. I have visitors at the house for the weekend and a get together at the house tomorrow and a possible dinner and movie afterward. Good thing I have that boost of confidence. Would not want to lose that 5 pounds that I am ahead of the game. Is a good idea to let my dinner companion know before we go out. This will allow them to be aware of what we need to watch!

Will inform all how it all went on Monday when I do an official weigh in!!! lol