ok.... has been about a week since that little spurt of 'beat myself up' mentality. Has been quite the week. Lots of ups and downs throughout the week. Am getting back on board with my health. Was able to make appointments for all the things the doc wants me to do! So, that is back on track.
As of today my goal is 13 cigarettes!. Need to get back on tis wagon. As someone once said, you never truly fail unless you give up! So we will call that little fallback a fall off the wagon. A regroup if you will. Now, time to change it and go again. As I cut back I am thinking of things that I need to change in order to make it easier for me this time! My biggest hurdle is always having it around me. It is too easy, quick and without thought to light up when someone else does! Am leary to tell those around me though. Have put them through too many hairbrain ideas that I never completed. I don't need another false yay me from them. The knowing that in the back of their minds they are saying ya right. Think this is the big challenge. The wow factor if I pulled this off would be great! Tis easy to stop for a few days..... it would be the long haul that would get me! lol
Seems the motivation is not as high as it was the last time that I started all of this. Is the learyness that I will not succeed once again! Am trying to change it to I will NOT fail again, but I too much of a realist to let that be the main ideal!
IF you are going to insist on doing this alone by choice, then set some ground rules for yourself. Set the rule that smoking is done outside, to keep the house free and little girls healthy. Recognise when you are smoking out of habit and when you are smoking because you want one ... adjust your habits from there. Before you get up to have a smoke, ask yourself if you really want one.
ReplyDelete"Am trying to change it to I will NOT fail again, but I too much of a realist to let that be the main ideal!"
You just shot yourself in the foot. If you can't visualise a victory, and believe in it, you won't accomplish it.
Maybe you should should let your family in on things so that they have the choice of supporting you. If they actually snub you (I don't think they will) then PROVE THEM WRONG! Motivation, right there.
I believe in you and I know that you can do it.