Yup, it is time to get back to it! It is almost half way through the year and I have moved very little through the things I wanted to do. Granted, I do have plans for some of my bucket list for the year. Guess that is a start. It is funny that all the things that have been already done all have to do with Carrie directly. Her, big girl bed and being dry and plans for trips are all to do with Carrie. It is great that she is the first priority in my head.
It is easy to make her the priority and push my stuff til the end. Now it is time to side saddle Carrie and put some of me first. The weight (that I am starting to gain again) and this smoking is getting way too out of hand. Need to just nip them in the butt and start being better about it. I have all the information needed to stop and reduce. Just need to add it up and put it in place. I am pondering ways to quit smoking again. After 2 attempts with the cutting down to quitting being unsuccessful, am wondering if other ways and options could work better for me! I wanna be smoke free for Carries birthday.... what could be a better gift than a mom on her way to healthier and making her healthier along the way! That would be a great gift..... even if there is no real significance to her! It would mean the world to me! OK.... there is a goal.... June 11th it is... gives me 17 days. WOW..... that is so definate, I kinda like it!
On good but sad news, the other parent got himself a job this week. He is now an employee of Home Depot. This means more stretching for care for carrie. Right now I have my neice staying with us until we can get something more set in stone, but I fear she won't last here long!!!! she doesn't stay anywhere long! Then we need to re evaluate who is dong what. Have a feeling that it will be me to cut hours first. That really sucks because I was just starting to save up some money again. That puts the idea of a vehicle or a new place to live for this year..... maybe another year here may set things in better motion for proper amounts of savings! Although it would be kinda great to have Carrie be here and go to school here. Couldn't think of a better place to continue to raise Carrie and have her grow and thrive. Maybe my heart is here and so should she. That just means the push to get the drivers license should be on. So, I can at least get out of the house when I would like to. Thanks to all those that didn't help!!! lol.... had offers for people to let me drive, but when it came to it no one showed up! Maybe I will hire the neighbor to let me practise driving. I have the basics, just haven't been behind the wheel in awhile. So, I need the practise desperatly! Watch out roads.... I will soon be on them!
Well, that is all I can think of for the moment.... so I will leave it for awhile!!!!
will, write soon
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
Saturday, May 21, 2011
Cheers to the learning!!!
Well, I have been amazed by my little girl! Just when I thought all was going to be the same forever she went and taught herself something. We have been trying for a long while to learn how to pee in the potty with very little success at all. It was nothing for her to sit on the potty, but nothing would ever happen. Then, out of the blue, she ran herself to the bathroom. That is not surprising, because she usually does that, but she peed and pooped. It shocked the hell out of me. no promting, no reminding her, she just went and did it.
At that moment I was SSSOOO excited for her! realization soon kicked in when she wet herself soon after. At that point I thought, it was just a fluke. But yet again the next day she ran herself to the bathroom twice. That is when it hit me, just let her do it. When she was ready she will just do it and that is all. I know I have to let her get it on her own, that is the way she always has been, but mom needs to help! It has been a week since she has done this and throughout the day she has 1 accident a day, but we are always close to the bathroom or just late pulling down her panty. So, it is there and she is really getting it! It is also already setting in her night routine. She woke me last night to go potty! She didn't pee, but the idea was there that she needed to!
She amazes me so much. Just when I get into a rut and stuck in the mundaine, she pulls something out of her sleeve and it makes me rethink it all again!!! I truly and whole heartedly have to thank whoever sent her to me. She has totally opened my eyes to what can be done, and how sweet it all is! If I ever forget that.... all are free to smack me in the head til I remember!
Now that the amazement has been commented on, here is something else that is on my mind. I guess it is another form of amazement, just other end of spectrum. I have been sitting back and listening to people for awhile and the things that people not only think, but say are beyond me! All relating to the fires in Slave Lake. There are comments about how they are already starting to milk the system and the choices people made while evacuating!! It seems people have such a small scope of seeing things that they can't fathom other things could be possible!! Not that I am never guilty of this, but it is just getting to me right now!!! It is all over work, and it isn't just for slave lake!
that is all ofr now, have to go get ready for work!
At that moment I was SSSOOO excited for her! realization soon kicked in when she wet herself soon after. At that point I thought, it was just a fluke. But yet again the next day she ran herself to the bathroom twice. That is when it hit me, just let her do it. When she was ready she will just do it and that is all. I know I have to let her get it on her own, that is the way she always has been, but mom needs to help! It has been a week since she has done this and throughout the day she has 1 accident a day, but we are always close to the bathroom or just late pulling down her panty. So, it is there and she is really getting it! It is also already setting in her night routine. She woke me last night to go potty! She didn't pee, but the idea was there that she needed to!
She amazes me so much. Just when I get into a rut and stuck in the mundaine, she pulls something out of her sleeve and it makes me rethink it all again!!! I truly and whole heartedly have to thank whoever sent her to me. She has totally opened my eyes to what can be done, and how sweet it all is! If I ever forget that.... all are free to smack me in the head til I remember!
Now that the amazement has been commented on, here is something else that is on my mind. I guess it is another form of amazement, just other end of spectrum. I have been sitting back and listening to people for awhile and the things that people not only think, but say are beyond me! All relating to the fires in Slave Lake. There are comments about how they are already starting to milk the system and the choices people made while evacuating!! It seems people have such a small scope of seeing things that they can't fathom other things could be possible!! Not that I am never guilty of this, but it is just getting to me right now!!! It is all over work, and it isn't just for slave lake!
that is all ofr now, have to go get ready for work!
Monday, May 9, 2011
I've been too gone, for too long....
and it's too late to come home now!! If someone can tell me who sings that I would be very impressed! And yes, it has been too long since I have been in here and writing. There is a simple answer for that. It's because nothing good has happened.
I have totally slipped on everything that I am working on! I don't keep track of anything anymore and I do just what I have to to keep on going throughout the day. I am gaining weight and not caring at all about it.
Work is mundain and boring. I don't wanna be there or anywhere else. Just lost all umph for doing anything. Even the things that I love and fully enjoy doing with miss Carrie are dull.
I know, it sounds like depression and it probably is! Just have no jump for anything.
Anyway, someone wanted an update, so here it is! Hope you like it!! he he he
I have totally slipped on everything that I am working on! I don't keep track of anything anymore and I do just what I have to to keep on going throughout the day. I am gaining weight and not caring at all about it.
Work is mundain and boring. I don't wanna be there or anywhere else. Just lost all umph for doing anything. Even the things that I love and fully enjoy doing with miss Carrie are dull.
I know, it sounds like depression and it probably is! Just have no jump for anything.
Anyway, someone wanted an update, so here it is! Hope you like it!! he he he
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