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As I sit here tonight, the juke box playing .... it brings memories when I was a trusting wife.... its a shame that all the blame is on us women.... it wasn't god who made honky tonk angels!!!   Tis the song that is running through my head. I know that is not how it goes but who said things are suppost to go in order! I am in a reminising kind of a mood tonight. As I sit here with a house of just me and Carrie. It is almost like sitting all in my own I start to think back to when it was just me. The parties, the outings, the doing anything whenever, and the going home to the cat! Don't read that wrong, I love my cat, but the little girl running to the door screaming mommy mommy is better! although someone coming to the door saying honey I missed you would be nice too!!  Still, nothing beats the little feet running is the best!

Well, on the perky side. I down to 9 smokes a day. Have been really struggling with this number. Not sure why, but this one is hard. Have been here for ove a week and just can't move foreward. I know it is me holding me back and not letting me get farther. Just gotta get that push going again to keep on going! The push will come back, just gotta find the right wind again! Until that wind comes I will just hold the fort as it is!

Weight is slowly going down again. I am down 3 pounds. I hit a depressing moment recently. I had to buy myself a new bathing suit and it wasn't a good expereince. I have never had to buy such a big bathing suit before! It was quite heart wrenching!  just another push to get into the sizes that I used to be in!

anyway, am getting tired, I think!  Think I just in a mood to sit in the quiet and be one with me. Has been a long time!  Good night!