It sure does. Only a few more hours til the new year comes pushing out the old year. What can I say about the old year. Not all that much really. Nothing really big or exciting happened. I had a friend move back into the city. Not that I have seen her, but I intend to remedy that come the new year. I gain 20 pounds and lost 13 of them! I got a job ( about time I did anyway). and I saw my daughter turn 2! Guess that one is a big one! Although every year will be a big one to me anyway!
As for the next year. I am pushing for a differnt kind of year. One full of new and different. I am determined to not have another year of blah at this time next year! So, to the list, the bucket list !
1. To own my own drivers license.
2. take Carrie to the zoo
3. be smoke free for a day
4. be smoke free for a week
5. be smoke free for a month
6. see 200 pounds on the weigh scale when I step on
7. See under 200 when I step on the scale
8. see the 180's on the scale
9. have a form of transportation or live where there is transportation
10. to be in or at a place where it is just Carrie and I
11. find a differing job than with Walmart.... or more stable hours dates and times!
12. get carrie into a daycare/dayhome to get her with more children!
13. go to the mountains with Carrie!
14. get Carrie to pee on the potty once for me
15. get carrie to be dry for a day
16. get Carrie to be dry for a week
17. Get Carrie to be dry for a month
18. Big girl bed for Carrie!
19. find something social for me to do!
20. be absolutly positive!
Some are pretty precise and others are kinda vague. I gonna keep them that way. Certain ones go together and others are very much apart. I keep them all that way to be that simple for me!I already have a handle on it cuz I am more positive about this all!! I guarantee that all CAN be done and WILL be done. It is that simple.
Happy New Year to all. And I hope for the resolove that you are looking for, and that which you are not looking for as well!!!!
cheers!
Friday, December 31, 2010
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Tis the season over already!!!
Well, it is a couple days after christmas and all seems to be back to the normal already! Christmas had its up and downs. I had a sick baby for christmas this year which sucked the big one. She is on the mend now and back to her terrorizing ways! Just kidding, she doesn't terrorize, just doesn't slow down. It was a good time full of family, lots of good food and conversation, and an unexpected phone call. Oh how I enjoy when he calls me. It's never like we are on the phone. I see him sitting in front of me the moment he says hello Bambi! I get the warm fuzzy feeling that I always do when he calls. He is one of the few friends that for all the things I think when I see things or hear things, it doesn't matter when I hear or see him! It's kinda strange. Not sure if he is putting that power over me or I put that there to keep myself connected. Either way, for how strange it is, I think I would be lost without it! I guess that is what 13 years of friendship does to people!
In an earlier writing I wrote about seeing HIM again. And I did at work the other day. I had to snicker to myself. He was trying to pull of this funny little number with an old mans hat and young clothing and it made me laugh. For someone that I had such adoration for some months ago, its all gone now! Not sure where it went, but was kinda glad to see it go! Although he had my attention immediatly and until he left the store, it was not what I used to remember me doing! No thought of what I would do to him or wow look at that good looking. Was all about what was he thinking! Just to clarify the person above is not the same as this guy!
On other notes. Nothing has really changed. I haven't lost any weight (or even tried to) and no plan of quitting smoking. Have just been sitting back and enjoying the time that I am having. It's kind of odd that this past week I have totally been just in the moment and taking it all in! Has been extremely nice and hope I can bring this enjoyment into the new year and every year hence forth.
I have a friend that said something the other day and I agree with her. Instead of resolutions for the year she has created a "bucket list" for the year. Its the things she wants to have done by end of year. Kinda like my goals. I really like this idea and how simple it can really be. So, this I am going to try this year! Will probably turn into a goals list like usual, but I am going to try and bucket list it. Main categories are goind to be : weight loss, smoking, and a great achievement of getting Carrie and I on our own. If you are thinking its about time we get out on our own I agree!!! Think I may even throw in a getting drivers license in there! That would be a great asset to have!
Anyway, on that not I have a list to go and create! Will write them when I have a moment to !!!!
Have a very prosperous new year and If I don't write before then expect a great 2011!!!!!!!!
In an earlier writing I wrote about seeing HIM again. And I did at work the other day. I had to snicker to myself. He was trying to pull of this funny little number with an old mans hat and young clothing and it made me laugh. For someone that I had such adoration for some months ago, its all gone now! Not sure where it went, but was kinda glad to see it go! Although he had my attention immediatly and until he left the store, it was not what I used to remember me doing! No thought of what I would do to him or wow look at that good looking. Was all about what was he thinking! Just to clarify the person above is not the same as this guy!
On other notes. Nothing has really changed. I haven't lost any weight (or even tried to) and no plan of quitting smoking. Have just been sitting back and enjoying the time that I am having. It's kind of odd that this past week I have totally been just in the moment and taking it all in! Has been extremely nice and hope I can bring this enjoyment into the new year and every year hence forth.
I have a friend that said something the other day and I agree with her. Instead of resolutions for the year she has created a "bucket list" for the year. Its the things she wants to have done by end of year. Kinda like my goals. I really like this idea and how simple it can really be. So, this I am going to try this year! Will probably turn into a goals list like usual, but I am going to try and bucket list it. Main categories are goind to be : weight loss, smoking, and a great achievement of getting Carrie and I on our own. If you are thinking its about time we get out on our own I agree!!! Think I may even throw in a getting drivers license in there! That would be a great asset to have!
Anyway, on that not I have a list to go and create! Will write them when I have a moment to !!!!
Have a very prosperous new year and If I don't write before then expect a great 2011!!!!!!!!
Monday, December 20, 2010
another day, another thought or 2!!
Well, it has been awhile, yet again, and I truly cannot complain much!
I have been working for almost a month and I still enjoying most of it. There are moments (usually when I mess up and know that I did) that I sit there and cringe, but there are more moments of enjoy than not want to. I am getting along with everyone and have even made my own friends. I had quite the compliment today even. I was told that I was too nice and friendly to be a cashier! I thought it was funny, but I took it as a good thing! And to my surprise, I have not had the wonderful occasion of grumpy customer yet (knock on wood).
As for weight loss.... I am so very surprised at wherei sit. I am 3 pounds away from the goal that I half heartedly set in November. If memory serves me right, I did not set the goal of weight loss, it was to watch what I was eating. Who would have known that loss of weight would occur! I assume with the going back to work and such that this has helped with the whole thing! Whatever it is thank goodness and I hope it will keep going! I am feeling pretty good about it all!
The not smoking goal is still kinda back burner for me. I am still watching the amount that I smoke, but I am not putting lots of effort and energy into it at the moment. I am going to give it a good push come the new year. Won't make it a by the end of the year resolution, not an as of the first resolution. Making it right then usually sets me up for failure. Wanna make sure I can put 110% into it. Not a half hearted attempt. The fast coming holidays are too much to stress about another thing!
Well, I think that is all. Am starting to think of goals for the next year. Think I am going to shoot big for next year. If the mood stays the way that it is right now, I am going to achieve big things next year! Might be the year to try and find a way to be just Carrie and I! Love the parents and having them around always.... It is time to be just me and her! Time to see how well I can be mom without the grandparents! That will be a wonderful experience!
If I do not write before..... have a wonderful holiday season and will talk again before the new year for sure. I will write my goals for 2011 then!
I have been working for almost a month and I still enjoying most of it. There are moments (usually when I mess up and know that I did) that I sit there and cringe, but there are more moments of enjoy than not want to. I am getting along with everyone and have even made my own friends. I had quite the compliment today even. I was told that I was too nice and friendly to be a cashier! I thought it was funny, but I took it as a good thing! And to my surprise, I have not had the wonderful occasion of grumpy customer yet (knock on wood).
As for weight loss.... I am so very surprised at wherei sit. I am 3 pounds away from the goal that I half heartedly set in November. If memory serves me right, I did not set the goal of weight loss, it was to watch what I was eating. Who would have known that loss of weight would occur! I assume with the going back to work and such that this has helped with the whole thing! Whatever it is thank goodness and I hope it will keep going! I am feeling pretty good about it all!
The not smoking goal is still kinda back burner for me. I am still watching the amount that I smoke, but I am not putting lots of effort and energy into it at the moment. I am going to give it a good push come the new year. Won't make it a by the end of the year resolution, not an as of the first resolution. Making it right then usually sets me up for failure. Wanna make sure I can put 110% into it. Not a half hearted attempt. The fast coming holidays are too much to stress about another thing!
Well, I think that is all. Am starting to think of goals for the next year. Think I am going to shoot big for next year. If the mood stays the way that it is right now, I am going to achieve big things next year! Might be the year to try and find a way to be just Carrie and I! Love the parents and having them around always.... It is time to be just me and her! Time to see how well I can be mom without the grandparents! That will be a wonderful experience!
If I do not write before..... have a wonderful holiday season and will talk again before the new year for sure. I will write my goals for 2011 then!
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
long time no write!
Well, it has been a long while and things have happend.
I am now gainfully employed by Walmart. Have been since Novermber the 23rd! Has been kinda fun. Am enjoying the time away from Carrie and she seems to not mind that I am gone. Just the mornings that I am not home she wonders about me! lol Am kinda wondering about it though. Just seems kinda to weird and out there! Me at Walmart working with my mom. But, I'll get over it. Just wish everyone would stop going to my mom saying I doing ok and talking about me and comparing me to her. I expected it, but can't wait for it to stop.
As for the meals I have been doing fairly well. As of Monday I am 13 pounds down. Am quite surprised actually. Have not been watching as much I had last month, but it still going down. I like these kind of surprises. If all works well, I could make the goal of being 200 by new years!!!! When I started I thought that would be a nice idea, not really a goal. Now it almost seems attainable! YAY ME!!!
I am not really in the christmas spirit this year. Am trying to get there cuz I love christmas, but ust can't seem to get there! Maybe once the tree and decorations are up that might be different. I hope the tree changes my feeling of christmas.
That about all I can think of. I am tired so, I can't get too excited! Will talk more when I get the energy!
I am now gainfully employed by Walmart. Have been since Novermber the 23rd! Has been kinda fun. Am enjoying the time away from Carrie and she seems to not mind that I am gone. Just the mornings that I am not home she wonders about me! lol Am kinda wondering about it though. Just seems kinda to weird and out there! Me at Walmart working with my mom. But, I'll get over it. Just wish everyone would stop going to my mom saying I doing ok and talking about me and comparing me to her. I expected it, but can't wait for it to stop.
As for the meals I have been doing fairly well. As of Monday I am 13 pounds down. Am quite surprised actually. Have not been watching as much I had last month, but it still going down. I like these kind of surprises. If all works well, I could make the goal of being 200 by new years!!!! When I started I thought that would be a nice idea, not really a goal. Now it almost seems attainable! YAY ME!!!
I am not really in the christmas spirit this year. Am trying to get there cuz I love christmas, but ust can't seem to get there! Maybe once the tree and decorations are up that might be different. I hope the tree changes my feeling of christmas.
That about all I can think of. I am tired so, I can't get too excited! Will talk more when I get the energy!
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