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As I sit here tonight, the juke box playing .... it brings memories when I was a trusting wife.... its a shame that all the blame is on us women.... it wasn't god who made honky tonk angels!!!   Tis the song that is running through my head. I know that is not how it goes but who said things are suppost to go in order! I am in a reminising kind of a mood tonight. As I sit here with a house of just me and Carrie. It is almost like sitting all in my own I start to think back to when it was just me. The parties, the outings, the doing anything whenever, and the going home to the cat! Don't read that wrong, I love my cat, but the little girl running to the door screaming mommy mommy is better! although someone coming to the door saying honey I missed you would be nice too!!  Still, nothing beats the little feet running is the best!

Well, on the perky side. I down to 9 smokes a day. Have been really struggling with this number. Not sure why, but this one is hard. Have been here for ove a week and just can't move foreward. I know it is me holding me back and not letting me get farther. Just gotta get that push going again to keep on going! The push will come back, just gotta find the right wind again! Until that wind comes I will just hold the fort as it is!

Weight is slowly going down again. I am down 3 pounds. I hit a depressing moment recently. I had to buy myself a new bathing suit and it wasn't a good expereince. I have never had to buy such a big bathing suit before! It was quite heart wrenching!  just another push to get into the sizes that I used to be in!

anyway, am getting tired, I think!  Think I just in a mood to sit in the quiet and be one with me. Has been a long time!  Good night!

just to catch everyone up.... including me!

So, welcome to the reading area! It is a grande area, for of glorious trees and vast streams. You can hear birds chirpping and the light breeze makes the leaves rustle. Ah, what a wonderful place. Now take a deep breathe and slowly exhale!

Now, that I have made you all calm and serene I will start with my rant. Not sure why I chose to write that first, just thought it would be different! Kinda tells the mood I am in too! Feel a little goofy today, which is a good thing!

Well, as for the things I am working on. I am sadly up 2 pounds so far. Ah, guess I can't always go down, that would be just wrong! lol   Today I am at 12 smokes for the day. was at 15 yesterday and I will have 1 more today. Found 14 tough to hold onto. So, this is going to be my goal for the next little while!!! 

Not really much more to say right now! Just thought I would quickly update and be done with it all. Will write more when things change!


AND SLEEP!!!!!